Number 81 – Careful with That Merry Go Round, Once You’re On, It’s Hard to Jump Off

My takes aren’t always right, they’re just my takes…

Okay we’re gonna’ shift gears just a little bit here…
Same genre, as yesterday’s “Power Ballad”, but in the pure enjoyment sense, I just like this one better, hence the reason this one #82, and yesterday’s was #83… Does anyone see a pattern here?… Ballads towards the lower part of 100?

Don’t read too much into that, I really do like the songs, even though they were written to get the feminine audience to open up to what these guys were doing… ‘eh hem”… in more ways than one, I’m sure…

I really don’t think there’s much of a story behind this one.
Unless of course it has something to do with Julia Holcomb, aka Diana Hall (Walk This Way, Aerosmith autobiography). Julia was the young 16 year old groupie who’s parents, Steven convinced should sign over parental rights and custody of, so she and Steven could live together both on and off the road.

The story itself, is emotional and almost full of complexity, as is the song. The story as told by Ray Tabano; goes something like this; Julia’s abortion of their child, by the urging request of her parents, disturbed Steven immensely, because the child was a boy… Not sure that should make any difference, but then, It’s not my story. As Steven wrote himself; “It was a big crisis. It’s a major thing when you’re growing something with a woman, but they convinced us that it would never work out and would ruin our lives. You go to the doctor and they put the needle in her belly and they squeeze the stuff in and you watch. And it comes out dead. I was pretty devastated. In my mind, I’m going, Jesus, what have I done?

This is that part where we, very loyal Blue Army soldiers, often wonder whose truth is the truth. We all know, by now that Steven’s versions of the truth are often very different from others’ memories. That doesn’t mean that it isn’t the truth, it’s just a different version. Nobody sees through another’s eyes, nobody feels through another’s hand. And as a man who is not at all unfamiliar with this kind pain, the man is indeed often the victim of a crime, that is not seen or felt, and very seldom even acknowledged…

But with that said, Julia has a different version of the truth…
Julia has said that “Steven was doing coke while watching the abortion and offered some to her”.

I’m gonna step way, way, wayyy out here, in no means to defend, but to convey an understanding of what gets lost in the middle…
Even if this was true, we assume a different scenario, than actuality. We assume a “coked out”, “gacked” addict spreading lines on the counter in the abortion room. We assume “ugly”… we assume “dirty”, we assume “street”. But the reality of the era wasn’t that way. Especially for musicians, athletes, actors, and even major corporate principles who had the “ways and means” to do as they please. It was just as easy to use in the open, as it was to hide.

When you’re a “Coke Head” in the 70’s it wasn’t as taboo as it is today. It was a time in our history where cocaine was widely assumed to be the “non” addictive “Wonder Drug”. It was used openly in clubs, and parties country wide. It was really no big deal for people to carry a vile in their pocket or purse, and a spoon on their necklace. It was a time when people carried steel “coke” straws in their cigarette packs. It was nothing to have a “toot” before… well, before “anything”.

What we assume is someone blottoed going in for an abortion. The truth is, there was plenty to go around, and you did a little in the day, and did a lot at night… So like I said, there’s no defense, but there is a degree of animosity, righteous as it may be, it’s there. The woman has led a very, very troubled life. A life that I personally think Steven wanted to “rescue” her from, but it just wasn’t to be, It’s hard to rescue, when you need rescuing yourself….

After 3 years of dating and heavy drugs, among other very personal and mentally destructive things that happened in their relationship, they finally split. The main problem was that she was just too young for a 27 year old, who lived “on the edge”. Well that and the house fire and the abortion…

However, my biggest problem with this “theory”, is that this album came out in ‘75 and that’s when they reportedly got together. Maybe the song is a premonition…

Julia Holcomb revealed her regret for having the abortion, upon joining the” Silent No More” organization of women who have regretted their abortions, and converted to Catholicism.

But even if that’s the case the song still stands today very strong. Very Aerosmith, although there was a point in time that Steven didn’t even remember writing this song. If I remember right, I think it was during the recording of Done With Mirrors during the Back In The Saddle tour , that somebody was playing Toys in the Attic and this song was playing at the time he walked by. He heard it and told Joe; “that’s a really cool song we should cover that one…”
And then Joe, in that very Joe “Fucking” Perry way that only he can say, said; ” Thats us Fuckhead!!!”

The song took 15 takes to get it right. Joe got so frustrated that Brad ended up finishing the guitar on the whole song. The complexities of the orchestra that Jack brought in, along with the said to be, very difficult piano and guitar arrangements were more than Joe could stand at the time.

It’s another haunting power ballad that screams 1975. Happy Birthday to the album that “gave birth” to a legend…

No real reason, I just like the song I hope you like it.

“And I got to be your lover honey let me take you to town
And I’ll show you everything that I know
And I’ll never ever let’choo down
‘Cause my love is like a merry-go-round…”

“Honey what’cha done to your head
Honey was the words I said”


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I am a man of simple means. My family is what's important to me. My family and my 3 girls mean more to than the sun! If you ask me what I think, I will tell you straight! So don't ask if you don't wanna know. I like people who are real and don't like those who aren't. You'll know where you fit with me pretty quick. I give most everyone the benefit of the doubt, at least until they prove me wrong. I've lived most my life like there was no tomorrow, at least until my daughters were born, and then even a bit after. By the way; That is NOT good advice... just a statement. I don't believe in "Halfway" Why put on the skis if you're not gonna at least try the face? But I also believe that there is more than Black and White. I believe in where I came from, I don't believe what I went through was ALL worth it! I believe in doing the right thing, more than doing what's right! I believe in "true" friendship, I also know that 99% of them aren't true. I will live a happy life and die a complete man if my kids learn from my mistakes.